I know it’s not January yet, but I feel like why do we have to wait for 2019 to really get started on the goals that I want to accomplish? Today I’m going to go over my 2019 resolutions five things to do and let go of to see if you guys are on the same boat as me or perhaps I can provide some ideas and inspiration!
1. Fitness (typical huh?)
I feel like everyone always has the resolution of losing weight or something dealing with their fitness and I get it. It’s the start of a new year, you want to be healthy, you want to be fit and perhaps there are certain events coming up or something you want to fit in or just want to feel happy within which is totally fine. But I say why not start now?
I get the holidays are here, there’s food involved and all of that, but I just want to get a jump-start. I’m tired of waiting and waiting for something else like saying, I’ll just start Monday, or I’ll start next month, or I’ll start in the beginning of the month or I’ll start January 2nd. Overall, I’m a pretty healthy individual however, I feel like this past year I kind of have fallen off because of a few things. But I am ready to get back on track!
My physical training had to take a backseat this past year and a half or so as I worked on my mental health. But now that I have been in an amazing space mentally for a while, I really want to focus on my physical health. I’m ready to kick some butt!
I was at a pretty healthy weight before getting pregnant with my son. He’s 3 years old now. After giving birth to him it took me nine months to get to my pre-baby weight which was fine. I definitely didn’t rush it. If you are pregnant for 9 months growing that belly, growing this baby it only makes sense for you to at least give yourself 9 months in order to lose all that weight!
I ended up losing 15 more pounds than my pre-baby weight and I didn’t feel comfortable in that body. I lost my curves, so I decided to gain weight and gain muscle to feel more like myself. This was the time I was separating from PJ, I was going to law school full-time, and taking care of Jet as a newly single mom. Needless to say, training was not my priority and I ended up gaining too much weight. I want this year to be the year I recover from everything I have been through physically.
2. Stop giving a f*** about what people think
I want to stop caring what people think about me. I have been working on this daily; it has gotten a lot better but it’s nowhere near where I want to be.
I literally don’t want to care about anything negative anyone has to say. I can take constructive criticism, but I am not allowing negative thoughts or opinions to affect me. Of course, that comes along with insecurities.
The two biggest insecurities I have are my legs and my lips. I don’t wear lipstick because I feel insecure about how big they are, and I know that it’s “in” nowadays but when I was a child it wasn’t necessarily the hottest trend or as popular as it is now. Of course, people found it beautiful before, it’s not like all of a sudden, it’s beautiful now, there’s been many groups of people who have found my types of lips beautiful in the past but growing up overall, I personally have never really experienced the positive attitude of big lips as it is now.
It’s something I’m going to have to get over and I’m going to try to work on it. When it comes my legs it’s a part of my body people have always complimented me on and I like my legs, but I want to be able to feel confident enough to flaunt them. I want to be able to go outside in shorts if I wanted to and not care about what people think. I am not 100% confident with them and I should be. Let me know in the comments below if you guys have ridiculous insecurities like that where you know it truly doesn’t matter but you can’t help but feel that way! Ugh, it’s annoying!
This is going to be a bit more on the cheesier side but nowadays I genuinely just want to love more.
I feel like there’s so much hate out there that we need to really start loving each other. We really need to see that we’re all the same, we’re all people at the end of the day. My goal is to continue spreading love, continue teaching love, and to be love and accepting people for who exactly they are. Not being so judgmental. Everyone has a different perspective, to me there’s no right and wrong. Everyone is going to have a different perspective on everything, everyone lives different worlds, there’s not one world, there’s not one reality, everyone’s always going to have a different perspective and I just feel like the more we love … You know what, I’m just going to ramble on we just need more love guys we need more love.
4. Finding a balance
I want a balanced life, a more balanced life. I am a stay at home mom and I do work from home. There are times I feel like even working from home, I’m not doing a hundred percent job in both being a mom and running my blog. I want to be able to be present for my son when I’m with him when he’s awake and then I usually work when he’s napping or sleeping at night.
That leaves little to no time for other things like training, and simply pampering myself or relaxing. I am finding the balance little by little, it’s coming along but it’s something that I definitely want to continue working on. I want to feel better as a mother and also feel great about my career.
If you have any advice for me, PLEASE let me know! … HELP ME!
The fifth and final thing I need to let go of are certain fears this year. I have many irrational fears, I can admit it. I decided I will be realistic and focus on three this year: loud noises, spiders, and just being super paranoid of the world in general.
I don’t know where the fear comes from, but I FREAK out. Let me know in the comments below if you have this fear at all because I know I can’t be the only one. If there’s a fire alarm whether that’s in a school, public place, my own apartment, loud alarms (the Purge sound), I immediately freeze up. And that’s not good because of course loud alarms usually occur because it’s an emergency so I need to be able to move and act fast!
Having Jet has helped because I do naturally react and walk over to him to make sure he’s okay if the alarm goes off in my home. But I know for sure if I am alone, I would still freeze up.
Spiders I know I can 100% get over it if I expose myself to them more. I will bring you along for that journey. I will more than likely have to go to a place where they hold large spiders and I will overcome the fear in 2019.
Being paranoid in general is going to be the toughest fear to overcome. I was raised full of fear and have been this way for as long as I can remember. I’m always watching my back, I’m always looking out (day time or night time), I’m looking around everywhere, I’m super observant of my surroundings. I even go to the point where I come into my house each time, I have to open up each door and closet and all of that to make sure no one’s there and I know it’s a bit ridiculous but it just it’s what makes me feel at peace.
I have been super candid with you, I have a lot to learn but I am incredibly excited for 2019. I would love to hear your resolutions and goals for 2019!
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